15th Jul 2011
Friday // 6pm // 10 months ago
twoface.
It’s a day after my birthday, and i’ve been sitting in my room since yesterday, but my thoughts and realizations have been different. I feel like my life has been a lie this whole time. The person that I wanted to believe in the most that would never hurt me , would of course not only hurt me once, but do it all over again as if i’m a bulletproof vest. Maybe I wouldn’t want to live my life on my regrets, but I do regret ever believing in you, ever trying to trust you hoping that you’d turn out to be the person I thought . But no, what i’ve found is the person I wanted to believe so much you weren’t , and that i defended from what my friends say to me about you. I think here is where everything should be left behind, that the love has been lost and there is no returning. I think here is where we should part are separate ways, and find the meaning to love again. Our love was shattered and was a lie, but I guess all i can do is learn from this kind of silly love, this kinda love that only lies and hides. Maybe one day I’ll find love as a beautiful thing that you’ve completely ruined for me.
These are my thoughts.