Vivien Yh Kuo

19^th Jun 2011

Sunday // 3am // 11 months ago

thoughts.

Just a few months ago, I lost a friend of mine. Since I was younger, I always wanted to believe life was a fairytale, something like the cinderella story where everyone and everything has a happy ending. It made it seem like becoming oblivious to the negative things in life was better and to close one eyes, and close one ear to people’s problems was easier until a realization of life came swarming in all at once. I never believed something could happen when i went to college, nor does death ever come apparent to me especially at such a young age. Lily’s beauty was like an actual lily flower that stood strong but peaceful and graceful at the same time. I remember the last memory I had of her was giving her rice krispies in my dorm room with a bottle of water. I still remember what she was wearing, and I walked her out of the elevator not realizing that, that was the last time I was ever going to see her until her wake. Something in my heart dropped and all the more, I wanted to hate life and everything that made it go bad. Till this day, she is always in my thoughts, and in my choices. I do believe everything happens for a reason, and i do believe she is in a happier place. Her death has made me realized many things in life and the importance of the future. Seeing that, she was so beautiful, she would have been so successful in life, all the more to make me stay strong for the future and to endure all the troubles that lie ahead like Robert Frost would say in his poem ” the road not taken” . If it were not for Lily, Rutgers newark would be a complete fail in making me happy. I would’ve never appreciated the people around me, and i’d never even get close to people at Rutgers. I can’t say that our friendship will last forever, but I will say that, i hope that the friendships that i’ve made at college will remain as close as possible and that Lily’s spirit will be able to help keep us close forever. Whatever troubles , whatever drama that we go through/ will go through, let us not forget the passion we have in keeping our friendships last for a lifetime. Its not easy finding a girl to talk to , or even trust, but thank you Lily for bringing me the best girlfriend at Newark. If it wasn’t for you, Andrea and I would never have gotten close. Most importantly, I have to thank you for truly making me see life in another direction, and to take that long road in order to have a stronger foundations. Miss you Lilypad, and you’ll always, always be in my heart.

Dedicated to my Rutgers famm . ya”lll know who you guys are =)