22nd Apr 2010
Thursday // 10pm // 2 years ago
how did you meet your first love and how come it never worked out =(?
haha aww I love these questions. I met him at a Christian missionary conference. I actually sat down next to him not thinking anything of it.. then we started talking.. still thought nothing about it. Then he ended up staying at a different hotel where all the rejects were and i was there too cause i signed up late ! So we ended up seeing each other on the bus again ! Long story short.. there was testimony day.. and that day i didn’t feel good so i stayed at the hotel until that night. I walked in and he was speaking and it felt like everyone was out of the room. It almost looked like he was shining. Thats when i was like dannggggg i want this to be my husband. haha ok foreals not that serious but it was like a ” woaahh” moment. He was the type of guy to always reject girls because he felt it wasn’t worth it to have high school relationships so on our last day.. he ended up giving me his cross ( i ended up losing it at the beach one day =( ) and he wrote me his first friend letter . it was mad cute i still have it along with all his 15 letters that he ever wrote me.
It never worked out because I was impatient. I cried that last night at that mission conference .. i didn’t know why , but somehow it made me feel uneasy to leave . Two days later he ended up calling me , i still remember he was picking up medicine for his friend. He told me that he had feelings and he felt like it felt right. But he wanted to wait four years before we could actually go out . He wanted us to be together when the next mission conference rolled around, which was when I was going to be college. He thought it was better to wait until I matured. I was impatient, and eventually he was too and we ended up going out. I was too immature for this relationship. In a way , i felt bad because I was his first girlfriend and I was nowhere close to being what he deserved. I always wonder if it would be different if I had wait, but then again everything happens the way its suppose to be. This December will mark the 4 years when we were suppose wait.
These are my thoughts.