21st Apr 2010
Wednesday // 11pm // 2 years ago
patience is a virtue
It feels as though I can never trust anyone ever again. I’m trying to move on strong.. i’m trying to look pass everything, and look at the bright side. The end of my senior plans completely got ruined, but Im looking forward to see how things are going to change in my life. Someone texted me today who I haven’t talked to in awhile. And I realized that I’m still quite immature, and right now all these relationships and blah are evidently superficial. I need to get past what is called “my feelings” . its nothing more than just feelings. I will never truly love my spouse, without having God in the center of our relationships. I think I have alot to grow upon. So with that being said, I’m not looking for any relationship, but of course like everyone, still have thoughts about it. And I know one day, when i’m extremely patient, then God will lead me to the right man who I can without a doubt trust because i’ll trust in Him. =) This isn’t the way I expected things to be. And i’m not faking that I’m okay. I’m not okay, and I won’t be until I move on. But i’m also not destroyed, because I know God has far better plans for me in the future.
These are my thoughts.