20th Apr 2010
Tuesday // 10pm // 2 years ago
box in my closet
I swore to myself I’d put you away forever, and never look back. Although i’m guilty of having you on my mind after all these years. I opened the box today, and good memories rushed through my body. I have to admit I was foolish two years ago for walking out in the first place. I don’t think anybody is quite like you. Your heart for God is amazing, and I wish I could’ve ran the race with you. But I got to admit, you made me regret it.
Till this day, I won’t admit that anybody is like you. Nobody is like you and won’t ever be like you. I wish I met you right now in my life where i’m able to understand how much you are worth.
Sometimes its hard , and I wish certain things can happen at the right time. Then would it be better? I couldn’t ask for anything more. I know I was the one who changed, while you always remained the same.
We fought towards the end of everything. I felt angry towards you, when I was really just angry at myself. I never told you how sorry I was because it seemed like you had it all together in the end anyways. But I am, I am very sorry, and maybe one day I could tell you how sorry I am.
All you did was love me, and all I did was pushed you away. I hope someone like you will drop my way…
faith, help me find a way.
These are my thoughts.