19th Apr 2010
Monday // 11pm // 2 years ago
If you could go back in time 10 years and tell your younger self something, what would it be?
Lol, this is a fun question. Honestly, I wish my parents didn’t make me feel so insecure and unloved. I think I messed up in life the most, was feeling like I was never good enough because my parents never payed much attention to me, which evidently hurt me the most and led me to feel like I needed people , and I needed to be accepted by the world because my family didn’t accept me. The truth is, yes there are times where kids are like ” wow my parents hate me” I don’t think my parents hated me, but I know they were expecting to have a third child and so because of that, they nearly treated me invisible, and incredibly unfair. I learned to forgive them along the way by going to church. So I get mad when people are like ” u fake christian” because in reality they know nothing about what i’ve been through. I think I have grown a lot because at this point, i’m happy I still love and appreciate my parents after what they have put me through. So if i could go back in 10 years I wish I could tell myself to be strong, and what others treat me as, especially my parents wouldn’t have defined me.. because a lot of times I used that to define myself and ended in many bad situations including thinking i was dumb for the longest time. I became hella depressed, and still sometimes, i get into dark moods, but i wish as a kid I could be atleast stronger , but i mean what kid tells themselves that anyways? Sorry this was a long response.. but alot of things interconnect with many things. !!
These are my thoughts.