19th Apr 2010
Monday // 7pm // 2 years ago
life.
I think I’m letting go slowly. No pointless fights, because fighting would be trying and working… and I don’t want to care anymore. Up to this point, I’ve never felt more than satisfied with who I am. I treat you so well, and I know I do, because I don’t try to do whatever I WANT all the time, nor do I care. I began to care about you more. I did things that I would never do for anyone. I think of things to do for you all the time. I know I haven’t always been the greatest, but up to this point I think I made a complete turn around, and i’m happy on how I treat you. Up to this point, I don’t care if I lose you anymore, because the truth is, I know I deserve better with the things I do for you.
I feel like YOU never think i’m good enough. Yet its not the same when I change, you stay the same. When is it ever going to be different ? When will you ever put the same effort as I do ?
In a way I feel sad, In a way I feel mad at myself for putting up with you. You ask me why I wander but sometimes your the reason why I wander.
When will I ever be the first one you think about? Because at this moment, Im so sick of everything I have to put up with. Everything, including keeping all my emotions inside, and just trying to be the best person.
I’m sorry you think i’m not good enough. I always thought I was the one pushing this relationship away with fights, but your wrong this time, you are just throwing it away, and I hope you regret it one day.
These are my thoughts.