July 2011
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twoface.
It’s a day after my birthday, and i’ve been sitting in my room since yesterday, but my thoughts and realizations have been different. I feel like my life has been a lie this whole time. The person that I wanted to believe in the most that would never hurt me , would of course not only hurt me once, but do it all over again as if i’m a bulletproof vest. Maybe I wouldn’t want...
June 2011
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So glad that I finally caught you at being the person you convinced me you weren’t. I guess I always know whats best for me even after almost a year of being with you. You called me a bitch, well good, because YOU don’t deserve me and YOU will never ever get the best of me ever again. Sorry I wasted my freshmen year of my college being with you , i promise i won’t be THAT...
thoughts.
Just a few months ago, I lost a friend of mine. Since I was younger, I always wanted to believe life was a fairytale, something like the cinderella story where everyone and everything has a happy ending. It made it seem like becoming oblivious to the negative things in life was better and to close one eyes, and close one ear to people’s problems was easier until a realization of life came...
July 2010
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Wake up call
I am finally eighteen . Even though I’m one year older from last year , there are still so many things I have yet to learn . We all look back through the journey that led us to who and where we are now . We go through the heartbreaks, the lies, the times where we felt like everything sucks in life, the nonsense fights we have with our friends or family , the times where we made wrong...
May 2010
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And all in an instant, everything changes.
We leave the past behind, and speed toward the unknown: Our future
We set out for far out places and try to find ourselves;
or try to lose ourselves.
But, if we hold on to the past to tight, the future might not ever come.
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do you ever think about ur ex still?
i’d be lying if i said no. but i wish it was no. But its more bad stuff than good. i’ve never been so bitter after a break up. Ive been hurt, and it was hard moving on, but never bitter to the point where it kills me to be bitter towards someone. I just have to learn to forgive, and its the hardest when he doesn’t give a crap. Thats with anyone though, how could u forgive a...
Okay seriously..
tristanambat:
No more drinking or smoking from now on x
its not that hard budd!
Okay seriously..
tristanambat:
No more drinking or smoking from now on x
“Do you know what it feels like loving someone thats in a rush to throw you away?”
April 2010
80 posts
If i’m always this bitter, im never gonna fully let go. Its the hardest thing to forgive someone, when they aren’t even sympathetic. Makes everything so much harder. Although i’m more disappointed in myself, and I don’t even feel like trusting anyone anymore, everyone just turns out to be a liar.
you were the biggest mistake of my life.
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Is God willing to prevent evil, but not able? Then...
Everything happens for a reason. And I know that sounds so broad. But why don’t you actually expiernece God first and then ask me that question ? Have you really actually tried to know him ?. I don’t think so, if your asking all these questions. It never said God was fair, he said it was just. All I have to say is that if there is no suffering, if there is no pain, then...
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wow i just cried reading your formspring girl......
aww sarahh !!don’t cry !! my formspring is lameeee haha. Thank you so much, I’m realli trying , i break down here and there.. but were people right. its hard, this road is long and hard, but if it guarentees only the best in the future then I know with hard work , it will only pay off in the end =)
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its just too hard
I never understood the meaning ” its just too hard” . Maybe I have been a victim at one point of my life, where I broke down because its too hard. But never once have I gave up in friendship/relationships because I thought it was too hard. I might of been a victim where I thought a piano piece was too hard to play, that the work load was too hard to do, but that was just me being lazy...
I'm not looking to fall in love. I'm not even...
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“I’m not in need of church, I’m just in need of God”
“That you, were the one that broke my heart, but I won’t fall apart....”
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this is kind of cute =P you said you liked him...
haha yes very cute… thats the only guy i ever met in a “cute” way.Thats why it felt so right you know. MMMM oh… no it wasn’t because of his looks if thats what you meant. The moment he spoke about God .. i was like wow this kid is amazing. In a way I admired him a lot. He built me up a lot.
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how did you meet your first love and how come it...
haha aww I love these questions. I met him at a Christian missionary conference. I actually sat down next to him not thinking anything of it.. then we started talking.. still thought nothing about it. Then he ended up staying at a different hotel where all the rejects were and i was there too cause i signed up late ! So we ended up seeing each other on the bus again ! Long story short.....
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Personally, I thought he treated you like shit....
ehhh.. he was a nice guy just not the right for meeeee. sadly =( i liked everything about him though , just in a relationship based it wouldn’t have ever worked out to be long term.
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deep deep inside, do you think you still have...
To be honest, I take out the box of his letters sometimes. Its really bad, but it reminded of who I really was . Someone that I could talk to God for hours. I remember at a Christian conference we hugged for a good 10 min, and it was like God was hugging us. Its a different kind of feeling. I moved on, but out of everyone that I commit to, i never look back and say ” wow that was stupid...
you never realize how good you had it until it's...
marielephant:
sad truth.
thats life, but I believe everything happens for a reason. So even if its gone, its not lost because something better in life will always come only if we choose to make the best out of everything.
In need of a workshop
Dance is probably the only thing I do to get my mind off of things these days. Its the way I express myself without anyone telling me if i’m good or bad ( well at least in my room )
Lol. stop giving me crap about losing a good guy. Sure he was a nice guy.. i don’t disagree with that. But your not me and never been in this relationship with HIM. You only saw everything on the outside. Never once did he EVER go out of his way to do anything for me. I only ever fell in love once and that was for the right reasons with the right guy sophomore year. And sorry but I KNOW what...
There are things that we don’t want to happen, but have to accept
things we don’t want know, but have to learn
&& people we can’t live without , but have to let go
“No time to breakdown, because every time I catch myself doing it, I become a...”
– note to self
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how do you feel about your brother terry?
ummm.. it would be long to type something out. But at times I feel crucially bad for him. He goes through hella a lot and I wish I could make him feel better, but ive realized only he could make himself feel better. My family went through a lot with him, but part of the reason why i’m able to cope with so much is because of him. So in a way through everything my family has gone through, it...
patience is a virtue
It feels as though I can never trust anyone ever again. I’m trying to move on strong.. i’m trying to look pass everything, and look at the bright side. The end of my senior plans completely got ruined, but Im looking forward to see how things are going to change in my life. Someone texted me today who I haven’t talked to in awhile. And I realized that I’m still quite...
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boyfriend application-os?
whhhattt spanish?
i’ll pass. Not really intrested. my heart is fried . maybe next year.
plus if its anyone that has potential, i already have someone in mind and that won’t be till very long . gotta give me a break somewhere. IIII need to give myself a break.
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who broke up with who?
to be honest, it was just mutual. if he wasn’t gonna do it.. i was bound to do it.. and vice versa. it just wasn’t working and neither of us were happier. We tried.. but it just couldn’t work anymore. We are still friends .. and everything happens for a reason =)
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Do you believe that you need a 'partner' (eg....
nopeeeeee. I actually was miserable for the past month. And I actually feel happier now. I believe only you can make urself happy. So right now i’m trying to make the best out of everything =) im happy with myself, and i feel like I did my best already and someday a real man will appreciate that… and i can sshare my hapiness with him. Right now, i just wanna be by myself and be happy...
liarliarliar.
So done with everything. Especially boys. I’m single now and It never felt better.
I never had someone lie to me so many times. And haters that were posting on my form spring how i’m not good enough for Mark… well keep posting them cuz they DON’T bother me at alll. Cause honestly, I can do better then someone who lies to me all the freken time.
I’m done. I’m...
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What were you like before you became a christian
mmm I was pretty conceited, unappreciative of life, never cared about anyone. Basicallly I felt like there was no definition of life . I began to be really bitter towards everything. Im better at taking critism nowadays more than I was before, because I realized only I can change , but I have to realize the things I need to change. I think whats even more important than change for becoming a...
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Who's that Ryan King kid you're always with? He's...
I think I just died puking . damn righttttt. he’s okay… i wouldn’t go that far to say hes awesome.
and correction , who is that hottt effing hot hot hot asian looking girl he is always with( meant to add another hot ). Give me her digitsss.
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:D of course I read all of it! Thanks for the...
Haha , not thats fine =) quaility versus quantity ! I hope to be a counselor again at HGC , it was a great expiernce, and i hope u enjoy this year and intern next year then woopeedooo you’llbe leading a whole bunch of girls who I know will look up to you =) !!
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box in my closet
I swore to myself I’d put you away forever, and never look back. Although i’m guilty of having you on my mind after all these years. I opened the box today, and good memories rushed through my body. I have to admit I was foolish two years ago for walking out in the first place. I don’t think anybody is quite like you. Your heart for God is amazing, and I wish I could’ve ran...
“can we try
to get it back right
and i ( i promise i will never leave your...”
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If you could go back in time 10 years and tell...
Lol, this is a fun question. Honestly, I wish my parents didn’t make me feel so insecure and unloved. I think I messed up in life the most, was feeling like I was never good enough because my parents never payed much attention to me, which evidently hurt me the most and led me to feel like I needed people , and I needed to be accepted by the world because my family didn’t accept me....
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Psh, I'm sure I won't do as well as you. xD I'm...
haha no dont say that ! i was not good . I definently wish I couldve done things different. I gotta say in a year can really make someone mature. I feel like if I went back, I would be able to care for you guys more. The camp itself is very tiring, especially when I got really sick during that day, everything just wore me down. But God helped me get back ontmy feet to go boating and pray with...
strong lyrics ! totally describes how i'm feeling
Bet you thought that i’d be broken. Mascara streakin’ down my cheek. Devastated, out the door way; In a daze, a state of disbelief. I bet you liked that; seeing me get mad. But, baby i wont satisfy your need. I’ve already been there, done that. I’ll be fine, even if you leave. i dont need you anymore; and don’t you know, That You, were the one that made me strong;...
life.
I think I’m letting go slowly. No pointless fights, because fighting would be trying and working… and I don’t want to care anymore. Up to this point, I’ve never felt more than satisfied with who I am. I treat you so well, and I know I do, because I don’t try to do whatever I WANT all the time, nor do I care. I began to care about you more. I did things that I would...
“Every time I tell myself not to try anymore for you… I end up doing it,...”
– feelings
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your awesome!
thank yous =)
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i dont usually post anything on formsprings but...
haha awwww you just made my day ! well don’t worry i blocked them, but i think it was jsut one person pretending to be multiple people. haha whatever immaturity at its best ! but thank you so much =) and yay for an exception ! =)
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Atta girl Vivien. Just know that if people are...
hehe Ryan =) loll ” atta girl ”
Thats true, i’m not on this planet to impress them, very good point ! yumm see u tomorrow!
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:D Once I lost my Chococat at Pathmark. mine's is...
But hey, that is still helping people ! haha that is a pretty good way of looking at things. Mine doesn’t sound as smart =(
How are you btw? are you going back to hgc this year!?
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OH MY ********!!! BACK OFF HATERS!!! BACK OFF! OFF...
hahaha awww i laughed when i saw this ! =) YAY !
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